Life of a committed person!!

I'm committed since 14th October 2008. My marriage date was 19th January 2009. But still... It's been more than a year and I'm still single and committed... We took this decision not to get married for a year as some tragedy happened in my family. We were trying to come out of the trauma again another news shook us. The news was that her father has some serious illness.

Just after my engagement, me and my would be was living in same town. We used to meet every weekends. She use to come at my place every weekend and we was having great time together.. watching movie...cooking foods...going out to malls...parks.. cafe coffee days...just chocolate.. etc. And in weekdays on phone most of the times.

I had very good routine life before i got engaged... but once i was committed i am still struggling to follow a good routine life. of course she is not only only factor to ruin my routine. .. it was me too who helped myself to ruin my routine :-).

I have disconnected with my friends. One can imagine i am writing blog after a year. My routine has become like this:

wake up call in the morning :-)
getting ready for office
alert call... starting for office
alert call... reached office
work... work... work...
missing her... one call to say i miss you.
work work work
alert call.. It's time for lunch
a relax call.. after lunch
work .. work.. work...
alert call.. it's getting late.. go home...
work work work
one more relax call.. once reached home from office.
sometimes... meeting with my would be after office hours
Goodnight call... after dinner

This is my routine after i engaged.!

She is not there in town since Aug 08. I miss her too much. Still routine is like above mentioned only. some extra activity has been added like. when ever i reach home i start my photoshop program and do lots of editing, designing to her photos...and send them if they come out good :-)

That was my lighter side.. now the serious part:
Life does not run only with the above mentioned routine. In life when we do a deep dive in each others soul and when we see how life of your partner is?.. is she happy or sad? is she taking care of herself or not? is she happy with me or not? we tend to give whatever you have to make her life easier, happier etc.

If i think from her side... i know how sad she is with what all has happened to us post engagement. She could not enjoy much as her father has serious illness. She went home to take care of her father like a son. She even doing more than what a son can do. Also she need my support always... so i make a call always to make sure I'm there behind you where ever you go and whatever you do. I spend my time to make her happy when she is sad... I give her a ray of light when she starting thinking toward dark. She cant tell anyone what she feels what she thinks .. i need to smart enough to understand her...

And my part:
I need to start worrying about money, finance, home, and all basic necessity. Work hard so I'll get good salary. pressure to perform in office and tension how i can manage my life with little money. But of course money can not buy peace of mind... this is what she teaches me!

So you can understand how busy i would be after my engagement!

So my friends don't think i don't remember you... I do remember you too everyday... but only few seconds :-)

When you accept the truth.

Sometimes we ignore the truth and want to live in fantasy that is created by you in your thoughts. Knowingly you don't accept the truth as it may lead you to sadness. You try to make your heart and mind believe that things may change. Hoping for the things will change according to you! Of course it shows optimism but what if this optimism lead you nowhere or make you upset every now and then.

If you think you already know the truth or you believe it is true but actually it is not as you never try to know the truth. Why sometimes we prefer not to help ourself to know the truth.

Should you dare accept the truth and face the reality? Yes, but you have to be strong enough to face the wind of truth otherwise it may blow you off.

Few good lines from "The Alchemist"

• When you really want something, the universe always conspires to help you achieve it. (This is my favorite)
• We have to be prepared for change.
• It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.
• It's the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary; only wise men are able to understand.
• Everything in life has its price.
• We see the world in terms of what we would like to see happen and not what actually does.
• You must always know what it is that you want.
• Every blessing ignored becomes a curse.
• Sometimes, there's just no way to hold back the river.
• People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want.
• When you can't go back, you have to worry only about the best way of moving forward, the rest is up to god.
• If you can concentrate always on the present, you will be a happy man.
• Fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.
• All people who are happy have god within them.
• One is loved because one is loved; there is no reason for loving.

What is trustworthiness?

"Everything from a good relationship with a customer to a good marriage is built on trust. Trust affects how we see the world, how safe we feel, and how we approach new people and situations. It affects whether we are willing to go the extra mile for a friend, relative, co-worker, or even someone we've never met but with whom we do business." "When trust levels are high, you feel relaxed and accepted; you can be yourself. When trust levels are low, you feel uncomfortable and on the defensive; you can't be yourself. Friends who trust one another can be themselves around each other and share their innermost thoughts and concerns. Co-workers with high levels of trust enjoy working and spending time together and tend to be more productive."

Ten ways to build trust in your personal and work relationships:

• Keep it confidential
• Keep your promises and follow through with commitments
• Forgive and move on
• Realize that trust is up to you
• Trust people who are different from you
• Tell the truth
• Communicate openly and honestly
• Be a good listener
• Work at building trust when there is a problem
• Learn to recognize whom to trust

- From "Ten Ways to Build Trust," LifeWorksâ, ©Ceridian Corporation. All Rights Reserved.

Love and Expectation!

Love...! Expectations...! Is there any relation between love and expectation?

when it comes to a different kind of love i.e unconditional love, then there is no room for expectation. Is loving someone unconditionally easy! Unconditional love does not happen easily; one have to face lot of hurdle, pain, hurts, and lots more...but if you really love unconditionally, you will be happiest person in the world. Loving unconditionally means not expecting anything in return.

Can't a person, who loves, expect love in return? or he started expecting if he thinks so? Perhaps he is started expecting!

I just recalled a story. One day a person while walking on a road saw a Scorpio was lying in water and trying to come out to save his life but he couldn't. Then the person grabs the Scorpio in his hand and saved his life, he felt very happy that he saved life of a Scorpio. But you know what the person got in return; the Scorpio bite him. But he loves to help others and he did without expecting even love in return!

A feeling of being loved by some only makes a person happiest person in the world. Then why people don't love or they afraid of expressing love?

Can somebody help me to understand these things?

There is only race where people don't want to run fast... LIFE!

This is a truth. In any race we always try to run as fast as possible to win the race. But when it comes to life people tend to run slow! why?
People, in life, love person around him/her and want to spend more time with them, it is possible only when people will run slowly. They afraid of losing love and they love to lose race! But then this is the only race where people have to run whether they want or not.

Do you love or do you need?

Do you love this or do you need this? There's a difference.
When you love something, you're willing to let it go. If you need something, your attachment might be less healthy -- and maybe a little more compulsive.