Do you love or do you need?

Do you love this or do you need this? There's a difference.
When you love something, you're willing to let it go. If you need something, your attachment might be less healthy -- and maybe a little more compulsive.

How do you know if you really miss someone?

How do you know when you really miss someone? Is it when you wake up with a start and feel like she's been there all night watching you smile in your sleep? Or is it when you laugh all to yourself over something she said some months ago and still find it funny?
Or how you just can't seem to stop repeating how the way you met was all about coincidence, and how you would never change a thing about it? Or is it when you start to write about the person on your blog, and the words tumble and stall all at the same time?
I think when you are writing about her, she is there in your thoughts...remembering the past...finding her in future... and your face would be fluctuating with vivid expression... and you do not have any control over it.
Like now... :-) :-( :-o :D :))

IBM Induction meeting

I joined IBM on 11 September 2006, this date is better known as 9/11. Previously I was working in IBM only but not on direct payroll. I worked for IBM as a contractor for one year and 4 months.
On 11th I rushed to The Grand Ashoka for induction. Something was happening inside me...but good thing. I think it was joy to become an IBMer. I took a chair near the person who was checking our documents. From 9:30 to 2 PM we were busy with filling forms. uff! At 2 o'clock after lunch we rejuvenated our energy. Now it was time for HR learning team to teach us about IBM culture, process, value etc. In between she sometimes ask us to stand up and play some game. And after end of every game she used to simulate us with the working environments and values. But it was great fun. Before end of first day she gave us one task:
Create a team, name a team, create a logo for the team, compose a song for the team, choose a COC Leader and choose a Cheers leader. We created a team that has nine members. We quickly decided we'll keep some hindi name. And we all were agree for NAVRATNAs. I created a logo. Logo was like prism ans every corner of a prism has star and there was a start in center and all start were connected with each other. We composed song for our team "Hum honge kamyaab ek din ... ha ha pura hai vishwas man me hai vishwas" I was elected as a cheers leader and Anand was elected as Coc leader. We introduced our team to all other joinee. There were 77 person who joined IBM on that day. First day of induction meeting got over by 6 pm.
Next day we had to reach by 9 am at The Grand Ashoka. I reached at 8:59am. Again she asked us to discuss about IBM three values that we had read in the night. It went till 1 pm. After that again we played some blind game. We had been given a number and after that they made us blind by wrapping cloth around eyes. But before that they had given us some time to decide code and rules to make. and then we had to create a line in ascending order without talking to each other. It was a greatest fun we had there at induction meeting.

Very entertaining and informative induction meeting i had ever had attended before.

After two days induction program when i reached office i heard the following line almost from everybody:
Welcome to IBM!

Arunima

Funny, energetic and sensible, good at heart... but biased with whom she loves, but this is nature of any girl/woman. Try to do everything in her life given by God. But never curse him... An honest bhakt of God...! Where ever she goes she makes everyone happy. Whatever the situation she is into she makes a person happy. Few time she feels low...but when ever she feels low she does not talk to anyone...sits quietly...tries to get solution...calls friend if she is confused... An Egoless person! A Good listener...but depend upon mood! Listen things carefully when she does not have answer at the moment, otherwise she has answer for everything...!!!

I have spent around 8 years with her since my college. So i know what she feels at the moment. I remembered she was always there when i needed her. When ever i was sick she cooked for me and she took care of me. Together we have seen a lot of phase of life, when we are studying at home town, when we were studying thousands of kilometer far away, when we were struggling for job, when we got job, she is what she was. However i saw lot of small changes in her but finally end of the day it counts what you really are.

There are lot of good or bad moments i remember. I remember one incident when i was terribly sick and she came to my flat to take care of me. she prepared food for a good numbers of day. She took care of every things. If i did not eat anything she acted like mom! when ever i felt low she acted like friend.

Will write more later...

What my heart feels abt myself, abt my frnds

Earlier I used to write the things happens to me on daily basis ... as time goes I made myself too busy to write. Again today morning i felt like resuming what I had stopped. Only difference is that earlier I used to write on paper with pen and I was the only person to read that. Now I’ll be writing and publishing on this blog so my friends loved ones can know what I feel and what I think about them... There are lot of things to share...

A Journey to meet God

It was friday evening September 1, 2006. When most of the professional heading toward malls, pubs... me, one of my friend Pravin, my parents, my brother and sister-in-law were heading toward bus stop. We were going to Tirupati. I hope everyone is aware about Tirupati. As soon as we entered to Volvo bus we felt very cold and everyone came into action, wearing jacket and cap. Bus started around 9:30 PM. It was night so we all were sleeping during entire journey. Next day at 4:45 AM we reached Tirupati. We got down from bus and rushed toward ticket counter for booking ticket for special darsan of God. Ticket was available for the same day in the evening. We thought we'll be getting same day ticket. But God asked us to wait one day. Ofcourse there was a big queue. We all six person stood in line and waiting for our turn. We spent one and half hour in the queue before we got to know that there is a link failure. Then they ask us to go to another building that is aroung 200 meters from the bus stop, where they arrenged for booking ticket. We all started running toward the building. Ah! we got to see another big queue. Then we learnt from Pravin that there is another booking counter that is near the first mountain. The God is on seventh hill. This time we hire an auti rickshaw. Again we spent some one and half hour before we got ticket for special Darsan. Cost of ticket was Rupees 50.

Now we had ticket and one day in our hand. Feeling relax and good. Now it was time to treat ourself. We spent some one hour there having breakfast and discussing about the God and how to cover rest of the journey. After a long discussion everyone including my mom got ready.
We then started walking to conquer seven mountains. We had to keep our luggage to dispatch so we ( me, papa, bhaiya and pravin) waited to surrender our luggage. Meanwhile my mom and bhabhi didnt stop for us and started walking toward the temple thinking we will catch them somewhere in the middle of journey. Knowing this we asked papa to be with them. After finishing with our luggage we started walking toward the temple. We walked some meters and realized we have lost mom and babhi somewhere. Me and pravin ran to catch them. Bhaiya had some problem in his leg so he was coming slowly. After few kilometers we found Papa and mummy but even they had lost bhabhi. We stopped bhaiya to come. Again we started walking toward the destination thinking bhabhi would have walked fast and we will meet her after sometime. We walked some kilometers and still....no sign....mummy and papa was angry...and frigtended too... we all started getting ideas...!! Then me and pravin started running toward the temple in order to search bhabhi. Even we ran for some 2-3 kilometeres we couldnt find her. We visited some small temple in between and pray to god for her safety. Finally we met her after sometime and told her about our thinking and ideas abt her. We waited for papa, mummy and bhaiya to come. They reached and bhaiya told some word, certainly not a lovely word, and bhabhi became sad.

continue.....